So today was a very eventful day. I’ve basically packed and organized from morning till midnight. It’s about 90% done. Today will be my last day in this house and I wanted to take a moment to just appreciate and remember the time of my life that I spent here. I’ve moved a lot since marrying my husband. Tomorrow marks my 5th move in 3.5 years. We’ve spent almost 2 1/2 years in this house. We moved here on halloween in 2017. It’s been a crazy 2.5 years.
I’ve had many ups and downs in this home. As I sit here in my living room and look around, a lot of memories come up – good and bad but mostly good. I really enjoyed every second of my time in this lovely home and if it was unto me, I would not be moving. This was the cutest little home I could have ever imagined and it was just so perfect for myself and my husband. It was an open concept design and all the spaces came together so perfectly. It was a small, intimate and cozy space. It was just enough – not too little or too much, it was just so right.
As I reflect on this, I realize I am not a person who lives life always wanting more. I am quite satisfied and beyond thankful for what I have. I appreciate this quality in myself and thank God for giving me this satisfaction. My husband always says this is one thing he loves about me and as I’ve started to open up my heart to myself, I realize I too, admire myself for being the kind of person that is happy with what I have and not ever really looking for more.
As I look around, I am remembering the days I’ve spent here. I am mentally going through the different routines I’ve had in this house. Waking up, coming down, opening the automatic blinds with the remote control, saying hi to Mayhem, off to my kitchen to do all my morning food prep, leaving as much mess as I liked in the kitchen and not cleaning up until I felt like it, working from home some days at my dining table, binge-watching netflix in the family room, so many pizza nights on the couch (dinner was always on the couch) with my husband, friends over for kirtan get togethers, my sisters 24th bday get together, family dinners, cooking get togethers: burgers, lasagne, indochinese food, homemade pizza, time spent with so much family and relatives from all over the world, so much time spent alone when my husband used to travel for business. I remember the excitement (mine and Mayhem’s) when he was due to come back.
Looking back, our time here has been absolutely wonderful. Though, I am going to miss it, I am thankful for the time I had here. I am thankful for the memories. As I turn the page of this chapter, although there have been so many different emotions both positive and negative throughout, it’s ending on a good note. I am smiling at my time here. I have grown so much as a person. I am much kinder to myself than when I first moved here. My mental health is significantly better. I know myself better. I have discovered new things about myself. I became more disciplined. I’ve become better. In more ways than one and that’s what matters in the end. I am looking forward to the next chapter of my life. Stay tuned.