I have not been tracking or organizing my days the past 2 days. Today, I was thinking that it’s really all about the flow. Once you get into the habit/routine of something, no one can take that away from you. Nothing can come between you and your routine. However, it’s getting into the routine in the first place that’s a big challenge. Once you set your mind to it and make it happen – don’t let it go. Don’t let it slip away. Hold onto it tightly like your life depends on it. Because it does. Happiness is everything. So find happiness and then do everything in your power to hold onto it.
I have had an on and off relationship with yoga. I first started learning it in the beginning of 2017. It’s been a little over 4 years. It was starting in 2019 November when I started doing it with complete consistency. 5-6 days a week of hot yoga classes at Goodlife Fitness. It was a dream. I felt SO amazing. I was SO proud of myself. Best of all, I was SO happy. I found true happiness in yoga. There was just something about taking a hot yoga class. The heat, the practice itself, the energy, the music in the background, the encouraging words of the instructors, the movements and poses that really make you fall in love with yourself, and the way you learn to appreciate and love your body. Yoga is such a loving practice. I remember the days I cried because of how connected I felt with myself. How good I felt with myself. It’s truly indescribable. I will never be able to explain this feeling to someone else. It’s something that can only be experienced.
I was in a good flow. SO happy. It took me 3 years after getting married to get into the mindset and flow of taking out the time to do something productive and positive for myself. Before this, I was not focused in anything. I was never consistent. I always wanted to do something. I just didn’t have it in me to make it happen. Anyways, sad for me, just by the time I got into the flow of it – Covid-19 showed up and shut everything down. I was not able to keep up with a home practice. And I lost my flow. Then, when Hot Yoga Brampton opened up sometime in 2020 – I was so happy again. It was a new environment but I quickly fell in love and got back into my daily hot yoga classes routine. Then with covid restrictions – it got restricted to 3-4 classes/week after a couples it completely shut down and it’s been almost a year it’s been shut down.
Sometime during the end of 2020, I discovered Yoga with Adriene and started doing some of her practices at home once in a while. This was the best thing that has ever happened to me. Adriene has given me everything. I would not have been able to survive covid without her. She is the most amazing yoga instructor I have ever met. Such a loving soul. In Jan 2021 – I started her 30 day breath challenge. I finished by the end of February (because I skipped some days and re did some practices). In March, I really started doing yoga consistently. But somewhere along the line, I got so overwhelmed with Covid, masks, vaccines, etc. I felt a big responsibility to be a part of the activist and freedom fighters community because my core beliefs that I have felt in my heart since the beginning of this ‘crisis’ aligned with this community. No one from my community was aware or speaking up. So I took everything that was happening and started internalizing it. It took a huge toll on my health.
After all the progress I had made in my health to get into the flow and routine of daily yoga and even 3 days/week exercise at one point – I lost everything. I stopped because I was so engrossed with everything that was happening in the world that I was unable to turn the off switch. After about a 1 1/2 month break to recover from all the stress I put myself through (it became physical). The emotional pain manifested itself in physical form. It was a lot to recover from and I have still not completely recovered.
However, 7 days before my 28th birthday – I decided I need to make a change. I stopped visiting all the doctors I was visiting (chiro, osteo, acupressure) and decided I need to make daily yoga a priority again. Because when I am doing yoga daily – all is good in life. I started with a 7 day morning series (Rise) by YWA FWFG. It was the best birthday gift to myself. 7 days of yoga ending on my birthday with a long and beautiful morning practice. It was the kickstart I needed and I have been doing yoga daily since Tuesday May 25th 2021. Now it’s been more than 2 weeks, so I will have officially made it a habit in a couple more days. And that’s just it. I have so many different priorities in life and things that I want to do. But it all happens little by little. Now that I have made this into a habit I am going to hold onto this as if my life depends on it because it does.
Yoga makes me happy (and keeps me healthy). Health and happiness are the two most important gifts you can give to yourself and the world. I found health and happiness and this time, I am going to hold onto it as if my life depends on it. Looking forward to the next 720 days of yoga. I have planned out exactly which practices I am going to do when for the rest of this year. Because knowing what to do makes it that much easier to be able to plan my schedule and keep up with it. It takes the guesswork out and keeps me motivated.
So the biggest lesson I have learned is: find happiness and hold onto it. That is my biggest priority right now. Happy to say I was successful these past 2 days. Follow me on instagram at @breathelovenourish – I’ll be posting daily yoga time-lapses.